hello if anyone is willing to help me i would be so greatful i am due in last then 3 months nd im so scared bc i do not have much for the baby She will b born in oct.. if any one is willing to give away any baby girl stuff i would b so happy for your help pleasee im all alone i had to leave the baby father to due not safe for me or her ...i have no car please someone help

Hi my daughter and I are in need of clothes...winter clothes, and shoes actually!

she wears a size 18month to 24months baby and a size 4 or 5 in shoes...

I wear about a medium or 8-10 pants size 7 shoe

if anyone could help us that would be great and you will always be remember in our life!

 I HAVE NEVER REALLY HAD WHAT THEY CALL, AN EASY LIFE. BUT IT WAS DEFINITELY NOT BAD. WE WERE RAISED, 8 BRO AND SIS , TWO PARENTS WORKING ALL THE TIME, AND MY OLDEST SISTER(10YRS OLDER) GOT USED TO US SMALLER ONES CALLING HER MOMMA. WE NEVER HAD IT EASY, BUT WE PULLED TOGETHER AND MADE GOOD MEMORIES.WELL, SOME. I MARRIED AT AN EARLY AGE OF 17. GOD, THAT WAS THE FIRST RUDE AWAKENING OF REALIZATION. HE DRANK ALOT, AND WOULD GET PRETTY VIOLENT TOWARDS ME. SO, IN 1993, MY OLDEST ANGEL,1 AND 1/2, AND PREGNANT WITH MY 2ND, I FOUND OUT I WAS HAVING A BOY.I COULDNT DO THAT REPETITION OF VIOLENCE, NOR COULD I BE PROUD TO RAISE KIDS AROUND VIOLENCE. I PACKED UP MY THINGS, GRABBED MY LIL'TIF, NOW 15, AND WE LEFT. WHEN TY WAS BORN, IT WAS TOUGH. TRYING TO GO BAK TO COLLEGE, RAISE TWO BABIES, AND BE 100% SUPPORT TO THESE TWO. I STILL DO NOT REGRET IT A BIT.        I MARRIED FOR A SECOND TIME IN 1999. THAT WAS THE SICKEST ROLLER COASTER RIDE YOU COULD EVER ATTEMPT. OFF AND ON, WE PLAYED IT OUT FOR 5 YEARS. 2 MORE BEAUTIFUL BABES ....1 GIRL, TAYLOR, AND THE CABOOSE, TRISTIN. I HAVE MADE ALOT OF MISTAKES ALONG THE WAY, BUT ONE THING I HAVE DONE WELL. I HAVE BRIGHT, EAGER, AND VERY BRAVE CHILDREN. AND FOR THAT, I TAKE FULL CREDIT. BEING A SINGLE PARENT IS THE HARDEST THING TO SURVIVE. I CONSIDER IT SURVIVING....BUT AS MY SECOND MARRIAGE DREW NEARER THE END, MY PARENTS BECAME WORRIED ABOUT ME, AS I WAS THEM. MOM , DIAGNOSED WITH DIABITIES 20 YRS BEFORE, NEVER COULD GET IT UNDER CONTROLL. HECK, IF HER SUGAR WAS DOWN IN THE 200s- SHE THOUGHT SHE WAS DOING GREAT. SERIOUS COMPLICATIONS ARE WHAT CAME NEXT FOR HER. ALOT OF THEM, AND QUITE OFTEN.  3 STROKES,PANCRIATITIS,BELLS PAULSY(some spelling champ huh) LIVER  AND KIDNEY PROBLEMS....U GET THE PICTURE. SO MY DAD ASKED ME TO MOVE IN W/ THEM, THEY COULD BABYSIT 4 ME...I COULD WATCH OUT FOR THEM....WORKED GREAT FOR A WHILE.   I MET FUTURE HUSBAND #3 SHORTLY AFTER I MOVED IN W/ THEM. AT MY JOB, NO LESS. THINGS WERE ACTUALLY STARTING TO QUIT SPINNING FROM THE MOTION SICKENESS OF THE COASTER, WHEN APRIL 13, 2006 CAME.

I GO TO WORK...MOM AND DAD WANT TO GO TO WALMART TO FINISH EASTER SHOPPING. I WENT ON TO WORK, 2pm; 6pm ROLLS AROUND......MANAGER(AND BEST FRIEND) TELLS ME TO GO GET IN HER CAR. I DID. AND THATS WHEN SHE TOLD ME. I CAN HEAR HER WORDS AS IF THEY WILL ECHO FOREVER.YOUR FAMILY HAS BEEN IN AN ACCIDENT. I HAD TO ASK; ARE YOU SURE? WHO WAS ALL IN IT?

CASUALLY, YET ANXIOUSLY WANTING TO BELIEVE IT WAS A FINDER BENDER, AND THAT AT THAT EXACT MOMENT, MY MOM WAS SCREAMING AT MY DAD; "I TOLD YOU SO!" THE NEXT WORDS FROM MY FRIEND?'''''3 OF YOUR KIDS WERE JUST LIFELIGHTD. I DONT KNOW HOW MUCH TIME ELAPSED AT THAT TIME, BUT THE ONLY ONE THING I REMEMBER ASKING HER WAS WHICH ONE OF MY KIDS WERE OK. SHE DIDNT KNOW. From work to the nearest hospital was approx. 15 miles. 1/2 way there, I get a call, and they have more news. My friend takes te phone. She looked at me and i knew what was coming....question was, who? Tara, we have to drive thru the wreckage. they want you to be aware....

the worst plunge in your stomach cannot describe the impact of emotion when she tells me, your mom and dad were both killed instantly.

Gut wrenched, and feeling an enormous amount of fear, i made it inside the hospital doors.(1st hospital-to stabalize) and the kids' pediatrician, gen prac., was meeting me at the ER doors.Tara. i need you to stop first and let me update you on thier conditions. Not wanting to delay another minute with my kids, i knew i had to. i asked her, who is safe? 1 of my babies is ok, right?  She shook her head, and mumbled out, Ty wasnt in there.(12 yrs old) TIF-11 broken ribs, crushed pelvis at least 3 places,rt femur shattered, rt hip, shattered. temp amnesia, both lungs were collapsing, severed her liver, and condition=poor; chances=50/50. TRISTIN-aged 2 yrs...17 breaks in lower extremities, feet disconnected from legs, abdominal swelling of unknown source.massive swelling to the brain.condition-critical chances=30% survival chance. TAYLOR,4, we couldnt wait for you, she is the worst. Massive head trauma.   that was it. no breaks. no internal issues. sounded more hopeful than my oldest and youngest....

Dr tells me; TAYLOR-condition-very critical  chances..............10-15%.

i started screaming at this doctor and friend. I shouted out that she is responsible. It is her job to make my babies well. she had better get away from me and tend to those babies. reminding myself(as if), that mom and dad were not there to hold me. WHAT? NOT THERE ANYMORE?i couldnt even fathom it. All I could do is pray for God to leave the lil' ones.

It was `130 miles to SLC, where the kids had been flown. I had picked up Don, fiance', and my biggest baby boy, Ty,and what a reunion that was. i was truely feeling blessed just to hold on to one of my babes. In the very next second, I felt rage, then i felt cheated. and i wondered if i could cope with a child with physical impairments.

We arrived at the hosp. at 8:11pm. Met by several physicians, surgeons, ortho,neuro.......and a small woman moved to the front of this congregation. To that point, I had only thought I knew pain. IM SORRY, BUT TAYLOR DIDNT MAKE IT. was all I remember for hours. We werent allowed to got see the other 2 yet,(too many medical procedures to do, including the bolt being put in to Tristins tiny skull, to monitor pressure.So, for what seemed like just minutes to me, but was truely,as Im told now, 5-6 hours i did nothing but rock my lil baby girl for one last time.

I was scared to put her down. I was affraid of never picking her up again. never being cheeck to cheek, playing the raspberry game.Nothing FOREVER.

to be continued.....

 NOW THAT TRISTIN HAD MADE SUCH HUGE STRIDES IN HIS CONDITION, MY HEART COULD  COME OUT OF MY THROAT. IT HAD BEEN TOUCH AND GO FOR SO LONG, THAT I THINK EVEY ONE HAD BEGAN TO LOSE FAITH. INCLUDING ME. I NOW KNEW THE FEELING OF "IT CAN HAPPEN TO YOU". IF YOU CAN UNDERSTAND THAT. I HAVE THIS OVERWHELMING FEELING OF GUILT THAT EATS AT ME CONSTANTLY.   REASON?.....THE CHAPLAIN OF THE HOSPITAL HAD BEEN TELLING ME, OVER AND OVER, "DONT BLAME GOD FOR THIS."   AND I ALWAYS REPLIED TO HIM," HOW CAN I BLAME THE ONE MAN- THAT I NEED MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW. HE IS THE ONLY ONE THAT CAN SAVE THESE OTHERS" BUT I LATER CAME TO THE REALIZATION THAT THAT IS EXACTLY WHO I BLAMED. THERE WAS NO OTHER PERSON LEFT. THE FACT THAT THE OTHER DRIVER DIED AT THE SCENE, HAS MADE A TREMENDOUS DIFFERENCE TO ME. I SHOULD BE ASHAMED. BUT THE ANGER THAT A MOTHER FEELS, AFTER SHE LAYS THAT BABY'S PERFECT LITTLE BODY DOWN FOR THE VERY LAST TIME, IS MORE POWERFUL THAN I COULD EVEN ATTEMPT TO PUT INTO WORDS. THE FACT IS, I FOUND OUT THAT SHE WAS DRUGGED UP ON HER PRESCRIPTION PAIN PILLS. NOT TAKEN BY DOCTORS ORDERS. SHE HAD TAKEN ALOT MORE THAN THAT. AND  I LOOKED DOWN, AS TRISTIN MUMBLED THOSE FIRST WORDS, AND I WAS EXCITED. THIS BEAUTIFUL BOY HAD JUST GIVEN US THE FIGHT OF HIS LIFE. AND MY PRECIOUS TAYTAY GONE FROM THIS EARTH.MY FULL-OF-LIFE MOTHER TAKEN FROM 7 REMAINING KIDS, 2 SISTERS, AND 43 GRANDCHILDREN, MY DAD, BIGGER THAN LIFE ITSELF, AND VERY MUCH STILL NEEDED HERE- WAS GONE FOREVER, AND TIF, STRUGGLING WITH THE FACT THAT SHE MAY NEVER HAVE CHILDREN.  AND WHY? BECAUSE THAT WOMAN COULD NOT WAIT 10 MINUTES,(YES SHE WAS 10 MIN. AWAY FROM HER HOME).         I KNOW FIRST HAND,.....RAGE IS A HORRIBLE FEELING. BUT I HAVE FELT IT.  EVER SINCE.

BRINGING TRISTIN HOME WAS A BITTER SWEET MOMENT. THE END OF THE CRITICAL WATCH, BUT NOW, I WAS SCARED BEYOND IMAGINATION. I DIDNT HAVE ANYONE TO TURN TO. HERE THIS LITTLE HELPLESS BABY IS.....WRAPPED IN A HALF BODY CAST, NG TUBE COMING FROM HIS NOSE, AND AT THIS TIME, THE ONLY EMOTION HE HAS BACK IS RAGE, HIMSELF. THERE ARE NO OTHER WORDS FOR IT. IF THE TV WAS ON, AND THE SOUND WAS NOT MUTED....IT WOULD OVERLOAD HIS BRAIN. CAUSING THIS REACTION. HE COULD NOT CONTROL IT EITHER, SO I WOULD HAVE TO MIX HIS MEDS AND BASICALLY KNOCK HIM OUT.     IT WAS SO EASY TO OVERLOAD HIM. NO VISITORS, NO SOUNDS COMING FROM THE HOUSE ALLOWED, NO SLEEPING UNLESS I HAD MEDICATED HIM. HE WENT 45 1/2 HOURS AT THE HOSPITAL ONCE BEFORE SEDATION. THEY WERE TESTING THAT, TO SEE IF HE COULD GO TO SLEEP ON HIS OWN.....NO, HE COULDNT.  MONTHS OF ONE ON ONE WITH HIM, AND WHEN POSSIBLE, GET OUT THERE TO FIX DINNER, TEND TO TIF, AND TY, FOR THAT MATTER. AND I WILL TELL YOU SOMETHING. I WOULD DO IT ALL OVER AGAIN. I STILL THANK GOD EVEYDAY FOR WHAT HE HAS LET ME KEEP ON EARTH, HERE. AND I MISS MY LITTLE BABY GIRL, MORE AND MORE EVERYDAY.         AFTER 6 WEEKS (LETS BACK IT UP A BIT) MY SECOND HUSBAND, TAYLOR AND TRISTINS DAD DECIDED HE COULDN'T HELP, NOR COULD HE COPE. ON MAY 19, 2006, HE KILLED HIMSELF.  

WHERE DO YOU PUT ALL OF THIS EMOTION? WELL, I WILL TELL YOU WHAT I DID. AS I WAS STILL GOING MIN. BY MIN., I JUST KEPT BREATHING. I KEPT PRAYING. AND I KEPT ON TENDING TO MY BABIES. THATS WHAT I DID.

AS I MENTIONED IN A PREVIOUS CLIP, TIF HAD WENT BACK TO SCHOOL PARTTIME. SHE WAS IN HER WHEELCHAIR MOST OF THE TIME. WHEN IT CAME TO HER FIRST ORTHOPEDIC CHECK UP( BACK TO THE 2 1/2 MONTH-MARK),THE SURGEON SAYS FOR HER TO START PUTTING A LITTLE WIEGHT ON HER RIGHT SIDE AS SHE WALKED UP ONTO THE CANE--ONLY--. I THOUGHT I WAS GOING TO FAINT. I WAS SCARED FOR HER. AND OF COURSE, RIGHT ON TOP OF HER, IN CASE SHE WERE TO FALL.(THIS BEING AFTER SHE WALKED ACROSS THE STAGE W/ WALKER). SHE LOOKED OVER AT ME AND SAID THE MOST EYE OPENING WORDS I HAVE EVER HEARD......"MOM, STOP IT!! I AM NOT MADE OUT OF GLASS!!!"

THAT MOMENT WAS THE BIGGEST BURST OF REALITY I THINK I HAD HAD TO THAT DATE. I HAD HOVERED OVER THE KIDS TO A SMOTHERING STAGE. I DIDNT EVEN REALIZE IT, BUT IT WAS DEFINITELY AN EYE OPENER. THE REASON FOR THAT????? I DIDNT HAVE TO GRIEVE. I COULDNT BELIEV IT, BUT I HAD WENT STRAIGHT FROM GRIEVING DAUGHTER AND MOTHER, RIGHT INTO, CARETAKER, NURSEMAID, AND HAD BEEN HIDING BEHIND THESE KIDS SO THAT I DIDNT HAVE TO TRUELY FACE FACTS. AMAZING DISCOVERY, IT WAS. AND NOW I KNEW THE WORST EVENTS IN MY LIFE WOULD TAKE PLACE........more rantings later......tc

I can't even begin to find words...

hi cassie congratulations on adopting this precious baby. I am a foster parent and just recently my foster baby was returned home. I am heart broken, its been about three weeks and I still cry for her everyday. She was a crack baby as well and I was there for her when she went through all the withdrawls. She was my first foster baby and I was so scared because i did not know anything about crack babies. I remember i would be so angry when i would take her to her visits and her mother would say that the baby looked like a frog (because her eyes seemed to bulge out) but it was part of the drugs. I got her when she was two months old, they took her away from her mother as a newborn but the grandma wasnt taken care of her well either so they put her in foster care. I had her for 16 months so can you imagine, I was this babies"mama". I didn't want her to suffer but CPS would not do it gradually, I spoke to her mom last week for the first time since the removal and she told me that Ruby had cried three days straight waiting for me at the door until her little voice was gone. I was so heart broken. I still cry about that, I didn't want her to suffer not one minute. The system is so messed up. Please pray for me, as i miss her so very much but especially for my Ruby. I don't think that she is in a good place. Her mother had entrusted me with a lot of things and I know that there are drugs in the house where she is staying (Mom's boyfriends house) I am so afraid that Ruby will get into the powdered cocain and consume it. Please please pray and have your church pray for her. My heart wants her here back at what she knew as home but I know God has a plan for her and I just need to trust him. Cassie I may have some clothes for your little one that didn't fit Ruby anymore but where would I send it. If you need to contact me my email address is janieg716@yahoo.com

Thank you so Much Soulight, I appreciate your time for me. Thanks !! :)

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I am in need of newbornan baby stuff for my new baby girl. She was born on June 30th 2007. My friend had a baby boy 3 years ago and did not want him. I adopted him, and he is now 3 years old. She just had a babygirl, and did not want her aswell. I adopted her too, so they can be together and in a good Christian Home. Im 29 and my husband is 30. He is a youth minister and we are very active in the church. We have two girls of our own, they are 8 years old and 9 years old. So we have our hands full. Both babies were born with crack cocain in their systems. I need help with clothes for all of my children. Please if any one could help witrh anything I would appreciate it. We both do work, but have another baby was unexpected. I cant afford anything right now, with all the bills I have to pay. I just need some temporary assistance so I can catch up. Diapers and formula are so expensive. And school is about to start for my daughters, and I cant afford clothes for them. I know this was a hard decision for me. But I wanted to give these babies a home and lots of LOVE. I live in Spring, Texas. My name is Cassie.